Its two years already, two years that i have left home with Hopes and Ambitions to change the world…
a funny Group name i have seen on a Social Network was "How i left Home to change the World and came back Wasted…"
That's how i feel i am going to end…
Two years ago i decided for myself that i am going to take this road, to "change" my life and the life of others. Since i was a child i wanted to be one of those crazy Scientists who mix stuff together, an Alchemist who can turn Dust to Gold, good to evil or sadness to happiness.
When i "grew up" a little more i got interested in Medicine and Medical Research. Now i am studying Molecular Medicine, the subject i have always wanted…
The road was hard, i had to come out of home, fly over the "small" Sea and land in a country i loved since i was a child. I have been a good student in School, my Marks made it possible to get one of those precious spots on this Major and i was happier more than ever before, having the possibility to chase my Dream. I thought it was simple, just hope on that train called University and it will get you there… What i forgot that a Train isn't always safe, you have Bandits (Wild Wild West anyone?), you have the Weather (it snows alot here), you have fallen Trees etc…
but my Train was tough, it killed the bandits, mastered the Storms and blew the Trees away…
That's the kind of person i have become thought my Teenage, the one that gets kicked in the ass and stands up and punches back, always "hyper", always awake and on attack…
I wondered when the time would come where i cant punch back anymore, the time where i lose that Hope i had from day one, the time where i need someone to pull me up again…
I have never needed someone to pull me up, i used to sleep over it a couple of days and the sun would shine again…
Its probably going to be this way again this time, but right now i am feeling more down than anytime before. I am feeling so sick that i am having stomach aches just because of it…
That's the reason i decided to start this Blog, i just need a place to pour all of my thoughts to and just write and write and write till i have nothing to say anymore…
It might happen that some people might understand the way i feel right now, if there is anyone like that, a comment would only help me, if you don't want to comment, then don't !
For me, just another day ends, with countless hours (actually i did count…6) of studying for the next exam that i am sure i wont do well at (AGAIN) but who knows, this might be the turning point where i wont be kicked back again!
That's why i have chosen green as a template, someone told me that green is the color of Hope, o have Hope, even if its somehow down right now… maybe some day…
